WHAT!?!

omg guys I just told someone that I like them and I still like a different guy more but he says he likes me back so what should i do? AHH this post makes no sense so I am sorry if you are confused I am just all discombobulated.

All apologies

Is a great song but that is beside the point. I haven't had time to write what with school and lacrosse and stuff soooo I will do a full post soon.

Emptyness

So today I spent the day with my two best friends. We went to the movies and saw She's Out of My League, which was way better than I expected. Overall it was a fun day that any normal girl would have been perfectly fine with. However I am not that normal. As soon as I get into the car instead of thanking my mom for driving me and funding the day I lash out like no other. Once I get home I feel very empty. I am not quite sure how to fix this. I know I am not depressed or anything and I am still upset over last weekends fail. I'll keep trying.

Anonymity

DOESN'T EXIST ANYMORE. Today's modern times have made it absolutely impossible to do anything in secret. First of all I write a slightly scandalous message to the crush...without my name hoping to slip it into his locker and spark interest in the mystery. Fail. Friends= I am going to search through her backpack for gum like its any of my business oh wait what's this a note. OMG LAUREN!!! What is this? Me=Damn. Drunken message on a restricted number sounded like a good idea at the time. What was I thinking? Obviously my lack of judgment due to intoxication played a big part in this scenario. He found out it was me. Not thanks to voice recognition but thanks to a friend of mine who spilled the beans. Welcome to the land of awkward population me.

Flowers

So im sitting in history pondering about life. I sit by the window in a corner seat which is usually a disadvantage since the shades don't cover the enormous window right next to me so movies=blindness. Well it has been quite wintry lately but I am really liking March. I see the first hints of spring and that is why I am writing. I look out the window and the tree that was once bare from any sig of life is blooming with gorgeous flowers. I am generally not one to take note but I just couldn't stop looking. It really made me actually appreciate spring for more than just a chillier summer except with school. Thank you tree. You are beautiful.