farmville

I am officially addicted to Farmville and twitter....enough said.

first day!

hello there, today was my first day of sophomore year folks. I got really good teachers which I thought I would never say. It was pretty good all and all. Geometry. World history. Biology. English. Dance. spanish 3. Fabulous ready for an amazing scratch that hopefully adequate oh wait no negativity lets compromise a good year. Wow what a long sentence. Here's to highschool. 10 things is almost on so that's my queue to say adios.

Adios.

Abandoned?

Tricia where have you gone? Anyway I feel like writing again so I will. Last night I attended my cousins birthday party. We are the same age and about 20 people came over. Everyone seemed really close. Why can't I have this great circle of friends that loves to get together and what not. I just can't seem to find that which is a big part of my self transformation. I need a solid group who I can feel comfortable with and always have a good time. So I guess I will try and let it happen naturally but I may get impatient. I am afraid I will start trying to search for it and when you hunt for friends you always get a negative result. Hopefully I will find them sooner or later preferably sooner.

bleh

sorry i havent been writing that much. I am just not in the mood right now. That is all

Lost

I have had a jam packed summer yet I still feel as though I didn't live it to the fullest. I wish I spent more time with my friends and creating more memories than I did. Maybe I am just over analyzing myself trying to make sure I have a great time all the time. I guess it's a moot point considering school is just around the corner. Today I got my school supplies. All the usual: paper pens binders dividers whoozits and whatsits. My loss comes from that too as I used to love going it used to be a highlight of summer but today it was just kind of blah. Hopefully it'll make for a better school year. Wish me luck.

Depressing

Wow I am just getting high on life with posting tonight but I after this I must stop because my uncle's laptop has a squeaky space bar that really bothers me. So I just want to take the time to clear the air. One word I will never use to describe myself is depressed. Well because I am just not, I believe I come off as a generally happy person and I was reading my headline..."just a waste of time" and I realized I sound like a posing emo kid. So for for all of you who I know are wondering no I am not depressed. This may not even be an issue maybe this blog sounds totally normal. If so sorry for wasting your time by making you read something irrelevant. If I do I'm not. Did that last sentence make sense?

ASU

Arizona State University + Lauren= A possible college experience? Or an ongoing party? I hear they have a good broadcast journalism program, shall I pursue? Problem....I have a short attention span when it comes to those silly subjects like focusing and studying particularly in math and science. Well at a party school you should probably have excellent study habits and know that school comes first, well not for Lauren. So should I just throw in the towel to ASU and start filling out the application for Brigham Young or do you think I will have a shot in hell at one of the top 20 party schools in the country.

Back Again

Hello I have just arrived home from a small town in PA whose name I won't mention just in case of internet creepers. I know very likely on my blog. So I have decided that I absolutely love it there and would not mind one bit moving there. My mom thinks this is weird considering I am in the middle of high school and teenagers just aren't supposed to want that. Well mother I guess I am just a different kind of teenager. It has nothing to do with being angsty or having a mid teen crisis or whatever other names you can think of. I enjoy change... alot plus I have a much more stable family over there. Plus all my cousins went to this high school and give it rave reviews. This is all completely opposite of my life in California. I am close to the city but I would rather be close to new york right? The shore is right there and I just don't see a downside. My stepdad just quit his job and is actually looking out there so maybe one of my crazy ideas will actually work. I am now looking at this post and wondering who am I trying to convince? Tricia and all my other anonomous/nonexistent readers or Me? Another dilema in the complicated scheme of life.

accomplishment

Well I think it is safe to say my post about camp was successful. Why do I say this? Well generally when I post Tricia poses tons of questions and I am left with what feels like an incomplete article and I have to answer these questions because it would be rude not to. There were no questions. I spilled my heart and was successful this is a huge step forward for me and tricia don't stop posting questions I really appreciate your feed back and all your support this summer. So please keep being honest with what you think about my posts and my quest to self realization.

The Best Week of my Life

Hello everyone I was gone this past week at a church camp in norcal. I know church camp sounds lame sauce but it's not like every other church. I am an active member of the ucc which supports things most churches don't. These things include: gay marriage, transgendered people, interracial churches and relationships among other things. So anyway this past week really helped with my transformation and realization of myself. I learned to accept flaws and look way way past the surface. I also established close friendships with many people who may have physical flaws but beautiful souls. This may sound cheesy but it is so true. This self realization started with the gaining of confidence in myself which started with a group of 20 called my family group. They are the 20 most amazing people I think I have ever met. I like to call it turning myself inside out. With all this turning I hope I can go into the new school year with a new outlook.